Day 4

I made it to the gym again but in the nick of time.  I now know you must be walking out of the gym probably by 2:30.  It gets inundated with kids after school. My guess is stay clear from 2:30 to 6 on school days. I'm just glad I got there. I got the letter about col's probate. I hated seeing the word deceased. Tomm. is the last day of school whoo hooo but sadly my son needs to have a mole removed. This has been a tough month for that kid.
I went to Target and was so hungry. Out shopping and had my morning yogurt. I bought an apple. Can you imagine. I don't know if I have ever just bought an apple alone without groceries.  How novel.

Trust

Day 3 and I made it to the gym however I can't say much for my other habits. It's hard to work in a restaurant when it's slow and have the chef put out a veal chop with black truffle butter or even the couple bites of crispy bacon steak. I can hear a couple of you gagging but I love that fat. Then there's the cake for breakfast tradition. But, I swear I only had a sliver.
Camille's friend gave her these little angel talisman's I guess I would call it for us. I picked one that said trust.  I trust that things are how they should be. That we really don't have control over much. So, I will try to remind myself of that. It hangs in my car with my hummingbird from my sister bracelet.
Hope you guys get motivated soon. Miss you all.

What I now know

Well it's day 2. I went to the gym again and it wasn't until 12:15.  I used to think I had to get to that gym first thing in the morning or I just wouldn't have the energy to go or something. Today, I did a few errands, baked a cake and then I went. If I could run over to col's any which time of the day and find that time. Then, I can get myself to a gym at anytime as long as I get there and keep my health.
I'm also going to blow dry my hair for the 2nd day Ha what do you think of that.

I will blog alone

Okay sisters,
     I know we can't all be on the same page at the same time. But, I will blog alone until you can join me. I went to the gym for the first time today in forever.  I thought if I loved myself just half as much as I love Col then I will find some benefit. When I had my hair cut right before col's funeral, the woman cutting my hair (who by the way col sent me to) said what would Colleen want you to do? I said Yoga. I knew then that I would try Yoga which I intend to do. I have to get a mat. I'll let you know how it goes. I hope to see you soon. Also, back to skinny rules once more. #1 Drink that water!!Mindful Eating I know has always been and was the answer for me before.

Calling Kim . Do you read me? . Over . SOS . Do you copy? . Over . You're breaking up . Come in, Kim . Over . Kim? . Are you there? . If you don't check in soon, desperate measures may result like driving to the nearest store and hitting the ice cream aisle . Kim? . Born on October 28 . With curls . Last seen in Boston . APB . Amber Alert . All truckers keep an eye out . Oh dear . What can the matter be? . Will a spoonful of sugar help? . Oh, forgot . You're a salty . A bag of salt & vinegar potato chips then? . Calling kimmmmmm ?

Committing

I feel like I recommit every day, am pretty mindful.  Yet, my body remains stuck.  No gain.  Just stuck.  Getting moving seems to make my knee very unhappy.  Although I prefer to walk or ride bike, I think I will have to do chair work and get back to the pool.  The pool is doable now that the shoobies are gone!