Yoga Yoga

Well, I almost made it. I stopped in the morning and the girl at the desk told me the clothing to wear. The time. I asked if people take certain spots.  Got the low down so to speak and off I went home to get dressed and retrieve the new mat that has been in the corner for over a month now.  I chickened out. The pants I was wearing kept slipping under my big belly and the shirt was wrinkled.  I did throw on one of those bad sweatshirts and went to the treadmill. Monday is my next goal for Yoga.

I did however go to the Potomac Bead Company.  I have wanted to do this. My goal is to step into uncomfortable places for myself. As I said to the woman "I grew up in the 60's so of course I loved beads and macramé" I am going to take some classes and learn about jewelry making. My son made a comment all the naysayers. I have learned to fight them off. Actually, they bounce off with a little tee hee these days.

Sisters, Sisters where do you roam. I hope you are all taking care of your health or at least trying today.

argghhhhhh!

I am my own worst enemy! I think I need a vacation! It's hard to live with other people who can have all the junk around in your face. If you didn't have it you wouldn't eat it! Will power is just not that easy.

Shoveling?

I hope shoveling counts as exercise because I am about to brace the freezing cold. I have to dig our my and mom's car's.  Where are those boys you ask. Alas, asleep. But, they have their share of shoveling in the future. Maybe low cal soup for lunch when I come in.  Kim, you must be a very busy bee yourself.

A NEW YEAR!

Never have I been one to mark the new year in the way I feel this new year. I am so full of hope.  And, this morning the SLOW downward movement of the scale. 148.  I know this is painful to read but it sure feels good to know things are moving in the right direction. 
My job which probably helps keep that middle age spread down is killing my feet physically.  Yet my $1500 oil bill for probably 5 weeks of heat- most escaping the 60 something windows keeps me plodding along. 
My theme this year is to try to recapture or prioritize my creativity.
I hope you girls are feeling light. Enjoy your day!

Just looked at the blog on a whim.  Apropos that it is New Year's Eve, yes.  I'm back with you, Sis. Here we go.  I was just saying to Mom today that I KNOW I HAVE to get back into the pool.

I'll take it

Well, I can see from my last entry which was about nine days ago and the holidays, I have been struggling a bit. This morning I was down to 149.5. All I prayed was to be down. Now, I am going to the gym today. I have started using an app on  my phone called lose it (free) follows my calories to my goal.
It's funny how nighttime is such a hard time for people who are fighting chronic disease and illness and I find it's also the time when grief strikes it's hardest. I think it's the quietness and the oneness or I guess you could say being alone with yourself and your thoughts.
I am back to my yogurt for breakfast just to keep my bod out of starvation and try those smaller portions and avoid that NIGHT food. We call this mindful eating.
I'm glad I started before the new year. This is not my New Year's resolution. It's the same plan I made a year or so ago, I just got off the track when I stopped loving myself AGAIN.
I must say though, I am looking forward to a new year and all the hopes that it can bring.
I'm guessing one of these days my sisters will come back to the homeland here.

What happened to day 5 because it's now day 6

Well, I missed yesterday. Not so much for lack of trying. I got up got my "workout" clothes on. Which by the way would not be considered in or probably stylish for the community center. I started chores. Really I was going until it came around 12 and I realized those kids all had a half day. I wasn't doing that again. So, I moved in front of the TV which lasted maybe 10 minutes on the fitness channel before my own kid came home.
Today the older kid has the car. So, I got all geared up, ipod in pocket to head for an outside walk. I am such a wuss it is toooo windy. I am going to scrub and clean the kitchen. Does that count?? 150 lbs. The most I have ever weighted not pregnant. I really don't know how I let myself get this way. It's a good thing I'm trying to be mindful now before all the holiday cookies.